I am a hoarder of passions.
I am a lover, a mother, and a friend.
I've started this blog simply for the fact it lets me appreciate all that I am.
When I am exhausted, crying, laughing, hurt, or happy, I want to share it with myself. I want to be able to reflect on my experiences and grow from them.
With that being said... welcome to my reality.
This morning my son peed on the cats bed. I don't know why. He has autism, go ahead and try and ask him what he was thinking, he won't be able to tell you. Still, I tell him, I'm disappointed, I ground him from video games, and can only hope that he truly understands the inappropriateness of his actions. This morning was rough, and I don't have one friend who could completely understand where I am coming from. Some of my friends have children now, but all of them are blessed with "normally-developing" kids. I'm blessed with mine too. When their 3-year-old, flushes half their toy box, pees in their closet, and paints on their bedroom wall, they know it is a phase, a rather hard-trying- phase, but it will pass. My son is 11. He is so funny and charming. I don't want to downplay his awesomeness by our difficult morning.
I'm in the middle of a cold, I keep telling myself that it's almost over. :) I'm hoping that it will pass soon. I've been on restrictions from working out as well. I have some unresolved issues with my leg from a previous car accident. I'm hoping that the doctor will set up my MRI, pick a surgery date & get this over with. I feel almost like a part of my life is on hold.
The happy things in my life right now? When you are sick or moody, it is so easy to over look all the things that are going right. A solid 97% of the time, my boys are truly awesome. The 3% of the time they are not.. they will more than give me a run for my money. I'll hopefully be done with school in a year. I'm going for Medical Laboratory Technician. It pays well, and hopefully I can get a great job with excellent hours. I think that is all a part of "The American Dream." I want to work hard and I want to play hard.
Anyone special in my life? Yeah, I guess you can say that. I'm in an "unrelationship." HA. I care about him a lot. Neither of us wanted a relationship nor were either of us ready for one. I think we really just enjoy each others company right now. I don't think it's that complicated, but all my friends think it is very complicated. I like him, he likes me. The End, right? lol I might actually have to clarify this on a day where I am actually feeling well enough to express myself. Instead of venting out my chest cold and all my frustrations from the past week.
I'm missing some of my friends right now too. I need to make some time for them soon.
Tomorrow is another day. May it be filled with laughter, love, hope, and feeling better.
